Jealous Women are nuts
Venting time ladies & gents. Last night I got in a huge argument over what seemed to be nothing as big as it got. My fiancee and I met a few friends at a local kareoke bar and I decided that I would have to leave early because of my work (we took seperate cars so it was fine that she wanted to stay instead of leave with me). One of our mutual friends had just recently broken up with her significant and he showed up, which put quite a damper on her night, and made her desirious of leaving early. Since I was leaving early myself I offered to give her a ride home, yes it was in the opposite direction, but no one else would do it and she just needed to get out of there so I offered (too nice I guess :)
My BIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIG mistake was that I didn't tell Steph that I was taking her home, I ADMIT it was a dumb thing to not at least tell her but I honestly thought she knew, and I figured given the circumstances (bad day for ourfriend who wanted to get home & the fact everyone wanted to stay) it wouldn't be a problem. Another mistake apparantly was that I said no to going home with Steph but was willing to drive out of my way for our friend. Why not go home with Steph but drop off our friend? For several reasons: 1) I had sis's car with me and needed to get it back before morning 2) Had no clothes to change into for work 3) Driving from her house to work would take almost 2hours given new construction on M14, and 4) while the drive was the opposite direction it was only about a 40min detour to help out a friend (I would & have gone farther for other people in same sitaution).
Fast forward... end result... I forgot I had her keys on me so I end up needing to go back and give them to her. However when I got there she was drunk (she will deny being drunk but I concluded that based on two other peoples opinions and that she even stumbled to get in my car she was too drunk to drive). Naturally I refused to give her the car keys. Already pissed off that I had "run away" with another girl, this infuriated her. So now I was a lying, cheating, mean bastard who didn't love or care about her and put everyone else above her and was holding on the keys out of spite. Almost three hours later with lots of cussing, name calling, and screaming I figured she was sober enough to drive again. I'm not completely innocent her either folks, I did yell back, and I did make the mistake of going with another women without checking with mine first.
Not sure where I am headed with this, just needed to get it out I guess. I apologized for not talking with her first (though I don't think it was wrong of me to offer the ride), and I agreed not to do that again without a discussion. I also feel that I did the right thing by holding her keys no matter how sober she felt. And for those of you that know me you know that I love that girl to death and it kills me everytime she says I don't love her and that I am a shit boyfriend. She keeps saying that I need to prove I love her and that the only way I can do that is to actively put someone else down over her. I don't think that just because I am not willing to stomp on other people to show my love that it is any less sincere.... is it?
My BIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIG mistake was that I didn't tell Steph that I was taking her home, I ADMIT it was a dumb thing to not at least tell her but I honestly thought she knew, and I figured given the circumstances (bad day for ourfriend who wanted to get home & the fact everyone wanted to stay) it wouldn't be a problem. Another mistake apparantly was that I said no to going home with Steph but was willing to drive out of my way for our friend. Why not go home with Steph but drop off our friend? For several reasons: 1) I had sis's car with me and needed to get it back before morning 2) Had no clothes to change into for work 3) Driving from her house to work would take almost 2hours given new construction on M14, and 4) while the drive was the opposite direction it was only about a 40min detour to help out a friend (I would & have gone farther for other people in same sitaution).
Fast forward... end result... I forgot I had her keys on me so I end up needing to go back and give them to her. However when I got there she was drunk (she will deny being drunk but I concluded that based on two other peoples opinions and that she even stumbled to get in my car she was too drunk to drive). Naturally I refused to give her the car keys. Already pissed off that I had "run away" with another girl, this infuriated her. So now I was a lying, cheating, mean bastard who didn't love or care about her and put everyone else above her and was holding on the keys out of spite. Almost three hours later with lots of cussing, name calling, and screaming I figured she was sober enough to drive again. I'm not completely innocent her either folks, I did yell back, and I did make the mistake of going with another women without checking with mine first.
Not sure where I am headed with this, just needed to get it out I guess. I apologized for not talking with her first (though I don't think it was wrong of me to offer the ride), and I agreed not to do that again without a discussion. I also feel that I did the right thing by holding her keys no matter how sober she felt. And for those of you that know me you know that I love that girl to death and it kills me everytime she says I don't love her and that I am a shit boyfriend. She keeps saying that I need to prove I love her and that the only way I can do that is to actively put someone else down over her. I don't think that just because I am not willing to stomp on other people to show my love that it is any less sincere.... is it?
posted by Posteritas | Thursday, March 30, 2006
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My brother, love is unconditional. If you truly love someone then you never have to say I love you much less PROVE it because love has no bounds, there are no words for it. There is no proving in love and you should just KNOW they love you.
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